Love and its strange ways

I started blogging on a serious note; and so I thought I’d lighten things up a little by sharing my crazy moments. There is nothing in my life that’s as crazy as my love life. What am I saying? It’s little to none existent so I guess that’s why it’s so crazy.

I’m such a die-hard romantic but right now I’d kill for some romance. Now this bothers me, a little. I’m left with a few years then I’ll be in my thirties – I refuse to be those grown up lonely women who are slowly dying inside hoping “Mr Right” is on his way. Hold up, it’s not up to me now is it? Or maybe it is –partly.

Ok, let’s get to the crazy part. So I broke up with my boyfriend of three years a couple of years ago and I immediately met someone else. And no, I was not on a rebound.  

So it has been fun with “someone else” and oh boy is he a charmer. All our conversations and meetings have led to me falling insanely in love. However, I can never be more than a friend to this guy because he is committed to someone else. 

I keep asking myself though: would God give you another person’s soul mate? No, I guess. Nonetheless, it does not make me feel less in love. Love hurts, especially when you have to love enough to let go – which I believe there is no such thing though as loving enough to let go.

“The holy scroll”, as my good friend Matthews refers to the bible, says:  “4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, and it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres.”

As human beings we end up sacrificing our own happiness for that of others and it’s not a bad thing if it’s for a good cause. After the sacrifice we wait again for a new chapter and we wait hoping that love finds us sooner rather than later.

The bible goes on to say: “8 Love never fails.”

So if the current chapter does not work for you, close it because eventually love will find you and that might just be the beginning of a chapter of love in your life.

As I tell my story to you right now; I’m slowly trying to close the chapter of being crazily in love with a guy I could never be in a relationship with. 

I wonder, am I the only hopeful romantic in the world or are there many girls (and/or guys) that are dying silently? Nonetheless, as long as I have my chick-flicks and songs that say exactly what I feel – I will always have hope that one day I’ll start a new chapter on love.

*hope this served its purpose – got you thinking about your love life and how naïve I am* 

Tl tl tl tl tl tl tl tl tl tl tl. Have mad love for y’all!!