A happy tune for a change

Today I woke up with such joy in my heart. I kept humming a song called Sunday by The Soil that my 5 year old sister sings so cutely. Today, joy did come in the morning for me – when I least expected it.

I woke up free today. Free from depressing thoughts, free from trying so hard to change things I know I have no control over, free from doubt and most gratifyingly; I woke up free from being myself's number one enemy. 

I am the type of person that would put myself in danger and not realise or just simply refuse to realise. I would do things to satisfy people and leave myself miserable. Today I woke up free from all of that.

Could this mean that I only realised today that I’ve been leaving an unhappy pretentious life? NO! I just concentrated so much on making other people smile before I did - big mistake. Kanti I should be my number one priority.

In fact, what makes us happy in life? It definitely is the little things that make us laugh our lungs out. There is nothing more I enjoy than being around family and friends. When my friends and I get together it is just total bliss. I don't even think I should talk about family - they are just a bundle of joy.

I guess as different and as unique as we are, we are made happy by different things. But why is it often that we don't count the little things that make us happy as blessings? It is those little things that save us from doing stupid things and help us keep our heads held high.

I almost became menace to myself by letting peer pressure drive me insane. My friends are getting married, some are married and they are having babies.... Aaaag nunus man.... Now this has been bugging me a little – to the extent that I thought there is something wrong with me.

Do you know that God knows when something is bugging you? He sends an angel to talk to you. So an angel came to my rescue this weekend and I seriously have no idea how our conversation started. She says to me "Don't give up in life". As I am sitting on the couch, I'm thinking: RANDOM! But she continues and she says to me "While she was at a clinic a while ago, she was sitting next to a woman that had given up on a having a child long ago because doctors told her it was just not possible. Off course, it affected her marriage. Years later she falls pregnant and she had just turned 40." 

I'm sitting on that couch thinking: where is this conversation going? "See miracles do happen" the angel says to me. 

Like I said before, people are made happy by different things and definitely at different times. So if you are reading this post and thinking what drugs am I on right now – just take a minute and indulge on the drug called nature. I promise you being on a natural high puts things into perspective.

So today at work, sis Funie (colleague) is wondering what the hell is wrong or right with me. LOL. Lenna ha ketsebe, mara I think life is trying to teach me that I should not focus so much on what could make me happy but to rather assess how I'm feeling right now. You know we tend to focus so much on the future that it pollutes our minds and we totally forget on living in the present. So live in the moment, I dare you.

Just to make sure that I rub off some of this happiness to you – watch my little sister in action. Love her lots!